Why is it in a world of infinite possibilities, I always make the choice of the one where I finish my drink and leave, or get another drink, or have a fag, or watch or dozens of other choices that never are "go and talk to the girl". Why is it that I am always standing on the side looking at the dance floor or a girl or someone and thinking of exactly what to say and knowing all I have to do is walk a few yards and actually say it? Is their world or a parallel where I do so? Or is this they way things are for a reason? Can I change it or is it too late? If so how?
Am I destined to be a character in a Nick Hornby novel he never wrote? Can I change my destiny? Will anything happen with Nari or am I kidding myself? Will I marry 2YPG or is that just an illusion of hope?
I may not want to be an island but I am.